Jangan buli saya.

Tak sempat update blog semalam sebab letih sangat. I've been in school from morning till evening. Dekat maghrib baru sampai rumah. It's all because of the PIBG meeting. It supposedly started at 2.30 pm but because of 'janji melayu' and the VIP came late some more, pukul 3.15 baru start. This was my first time attending mesyuarat PIBG and it was damn long. Bosan gila. Hearing 3 people giving speeches which almost take about 1 1/2 hours really made me feel tired and sleepy. Asyik tengok jam je.Perut pulak tengah lapar.I only have mee goreng as my breakfast and that's all. Bayangkan je lah. Sekolah habis pukul 12.45 (Khamis sekerat hari). I didn't go back home because I did not want to trouble Tih to come and send me off once again. So, pergi kantin dengan harapan ada lagi la makanan.Since they were busy with PIBG thing, they closed the canteen earlier.Hancur hatiku. Sedih. Dah la sorang sorang. It's not that the senior teachers did not treat me nicely, it's just that I still finding my 'rentak' to mix with them. You know, the big age gap and the topics that they were talking about...Sometimes it did not suit me.Talking about their children. How am I supposed to meddle in the conversation? Hahaha. Selalunya aku jadi tukang dengar angguk angguk kepala ja la.

I'm not sure whether this happens to all new teachers but there's one senior teacher (A) who seems to take advantage of the fresh grad. I did not realize it till one of the other teachers (B) came and advise me not to be so close to A. Why? Because B have been used by A before and she did not want the same thing happen to me. Al kisahnya dulu waktu B awal awal berkhidmat kat sekolah tu, si A selalu datang mintak B buatkan kerja A. At first tu, B boleh tahan lagi la. Tapi lama lama si A makin melampau. She even used the school computer for her own personal purposes. Print assignment etc. A is currently doing her PJJ course so there's a lot of assignments and presentations going on. A asked for my help to download the documents from the internet to be used for her assignment. Aku ok je lah. Memikiorkan mungkin A ni noob bahagian computer etc, I helped her. Setakat nak tolong bahagian teknikal sikit sikit, aku ok lagi.

The next day, she asked me to do her presentation and she even mentioned "Nanti akak bagi la upah untuk kamu" Snap! Ini dah naik lemak ni. B is totally right. I should have listened to her at first. Laju laju aku cakap, "Sorrylah akak. Bukan saya tak nak tolong, tapi saya pun busy.Banyak kerja nak kena buat" Terus berubah air muka dia. Amboi. Ni sapa yang buat PJJ ni? Saya ke akak? Nak je cakap macam tu. Tapi fikir dia lagi tua, I still have to respect her. Terus aku minta diri pergi toilet. I didn't want to be there any longer takut nanti dia pujuk dan minta buat benda lain lagi. Tak kuasa aku.

I thought it ended there. Time mesyuarat PIBG, she came and sat next to me. Haaa..Sudah. Dalam hati duk kata apa lagi la akak ni nak aku buat. "Pagi tadi kamu cakap kamu busy. Kamu buat apa?" Nampaknya dia tak puas hati aku tak nak tolong dia. "Oh.Saya weekend selalu buat tusyein untuk adik saya. Lepas tu, kerja kat rumah tu pun saya nak kena buat. Tolong tok saya.Nak buat lesson plan lagi" Jawapan baik punya. Celah mana aku buat tusyein pun aku tak tau. Hehehe. That idea just came and spilled from my mouth. She nodded.

Don' t you ever think of asking for my help again. I won't do it. It's your assignment, so buatlah sendiri. Aku pun tak faham la dengan dia ni. Apasal sampai nak kena upah orang lain buatkan assignment? Tak cukup masa ke? Busy sangat? Habis tu, kalau tak ada masa, janganlah buat PJJ. Semua orang ada 24 jam. So, pandai pandai la divide time tu untuk mengajar dan buat assignment.

Memang berasap kalau fikir balik tentang perbuatan dia tu. Mujurlah si B dah peringat awal awal kat aku. Mujurlah diri ni still tahu beza antara menolong and jadi kuli. Kihkihkih. So kepada otai otai di luar sana, janganlah mempergunakan fresh grad hanya untuk kepentingan diri sendiri. Okay?

p/s: Dah tak pasal pasal aku dah ada satu tanggapan negatif kat dia. Sendiri cari pasal.