Trust

Kadang kadang rasa kecewa bila orang tak percaya kat kita. Nak kata aku ni kecik lagi, umur dah nak masuk 23. Dah cukup matang untuk berfikir secara waras. Dah boleh kahwin. Mungkin dorang tak pernah nampak lagi kebolehan aku depan mata dorang. That's why dorang tak percaya bila aku cakap aku boleh buat. Rasa annoying bila diri ini diperlekehkan. Sampai bila harus begini? Kalau tak diberi peluang, macam mana aku nak tunjuk yang aku boleh? Langsung tak kasi ruang. I would say I dare to take a risk. I don't give up easily. I know how hard life can be when you have to raise yourself, not even asking for money from your family. Tapi kadang kadang minta jugak bila terdesak. But then when I get a scholarship from MOE, I don't ask for even a cent from my grandmum. Rasa malu nak minta sebab diri ni mampu hidup tanpa duit orang. Thanks to MOE sebab support aku dari tahun 2007. 2007-2012, I support my own life with the help of scholarship. Rezeki tu ada di mana mana. I love to be independent. Tak suka mengharap bantuan orang lain sebab some refuse to give help. So sick of this self centered people. Bila sekali dah terkena, sampai mati pun aku takkan minta tolong dari kau dah. Dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalannya kan? So, find your ways to achieve what you want. Lantak pi la kat orang lain nak cakap apa pun, yang penting, you know yourself better. If you think you can, go for it. Kalau orang perlekeh, jangan ambil peduli. Doakan jelah orang tu terbuka hati dan matanya untuk lihat sisi hebat anda. I believe that there is still people that have faith in me. A lot.Why should I care about this little group of people who refuse to believe in me or even give a chance to prove that I can? Hurm. Maybe because they are close to me, yet I assume they trust me but they don't actually. Terkilan.